Lea Michele appears on The Ellen DeGeneres Show on Thursday (December 12) and opens up about what her life is like after the death of her Glee costar and boyfriend Cory Monteith.
“I really feel like I’m still trying to figure out all of this. It’s been only a few months,” she says. Friday will mark five months since Cory’s death from an overdose at the age of 31.
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The actress and singer feels that her best therapy has been getting back to work on Glee and being around her castmates who she considers family.
“Going to work is no harder than being at home and being in the house and opening up a closet and seeing a pair of shoes,” Lea shares. “Grief goes with you every day, whatever you’re doing, when there’s great moments, when there’s hard moments. So I’d rather, for me, be at work with the people that I love that are going through the same thing. And it obviously has its own triggers. But at the end of the day, I feel so safe there.”
Her challenge now, Lea says, is figuring out how to live with the grief. “My mom has experienced a lot of loss in her life, and she told me at one point that there is an empowerment that comes with grief. At some point you find it. It’s very hard, but you will find it,” she says.
“I think at a certain point you can choose to sort of fall from this, or you can choose to rise. And that’s what I’m just trying to do. … I know that that’s what he would have wanted, to just do my best and to hopefully make something positive for where I go in the rest of my life.”